If I still drank

If I still drank, I would have last night. There was nothing noticeably different yesterday from all my other days. I woke in the morning and helped my husband get our second grader ready for school - my husband fixed our son's breakfast while I laid out his clothes and made sure he had a … Continue reading If I still drank


I’m a loner Dottie, a rebel

Tomorrow, I will attempt to finish my second ever half marathon. I'm signed up to run the Holy Half - a 13.1 mile stretch that includes two laps around Notre Dame's campus. I feel confident enough - I've done my training. I've got plenty of layers for the cold, and my usual pre-run breakfast - … Continue reading I’m a loner Dottie, a rebel

500 words solely meant to make me feel good

Twitter is nothing but gloom and doom tonight. Our current president is tearing down shit like he's stripping wallpaper. I don't know what to do so I'm making a list meant to: 1.) Make me feel better, and 2.) Meet my 500-words-per-day goal. Fair warning, this list is going to keep going until I see … Continue reading 500 words solely meant to make me feel good

Even my dog can barely sleep

Tonight is the worst my anxiety has been since the immediate days after the election. For a while, I was able to push it down, breath through it, ignore it. I put off my fear because Trump wasn’t actually in office yet, but now – four days in - and there is nothing that comes … Continue reading Even my dog can barely sleep

I have a teenager. I have a teenager. I have a teenager.

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This weekend I took the kids to see Hidden Figures. Today, my eight-year-old son said he told his teacher he really liked the movie because it was about three important things: African American rights, women's rights, and the space race. "And it was about science and math which are really important too," he told me. … Continue reading HIDDEN FACEBOOK FRIENDS

Dryuary: 3,448 days in

Dryuary is a thing now. People make a New Year's resolution to abstain from alcohol for the entire month of January. There's a website: "Dryuary is all about Not Drinking in January. Join with others, share your strength, take the Dryuary Challenge!" People can sign up to stay in contact with other dryuary participants and … Continue reading Dryuary: 3,448 days in

Send help – I’ve hit my brick wall

I hit my brick wall five days before the election. It wasn't even 8:00 p.m., but already pitch black outside. With my dog's leash in one hand, and my phone in the other, I was looking down searching for a text someone said they had sent, but I never got - not paying attention to … Continue reading Send help – I’ve hit my brick wall

Good news: everything is listening, including your keys

Last weekend my cousin and I walked a five mile loop starting at St. Mary's of the Knobs. We parked in the lot between the old catholic church and the new catholic grade school, and headed off with our phones locked in my car, my keys tied to my shoelace - the same as every … Continue reading Good news: everything is listening, including your keys

Write it down in ink

I'm having urges for a new tattoo. My last one, on the palm of my right hand was four years ago. It was a celebration of sorts - a mark on my body to remind me how long I've lasted without a drink. I was five years sober at the time, now nine years. Nine … Continue reading Write it down in ink